The Fame - 17

Tom

My arm was totally covered with blood, and the pain was unbelievable. Tears were falling from my eyes like a flood. The crazy girl had stabbed me in the arm with a knife and she was still running by my side and i could see how badly she wanted to hurt me. It wasn't hard to figure out that they wanted to hurt me and Katy, because they wanted Bill to suffer. Their eyes were insane. They just screamed out how much they hated Katy and how easy they could kill her and hurt me. They wouldn't give a damn about it if they only got what they wanted, which was Bill. I turned around too find out were Bill was, but suddenly i could feel someone pushing me into the white limo. The security guards tried to pull away the stalkers and they told me to lock the door and be calm. They closed it and i locked it. A few seconds later, Bill and Katy came into the car too. We locked the door and than all the secutiry guards jumped in and tried to drive away. The stalkers knocked on the windows and pulled the doors. I wanted to put my hands over my ears, but i couldn't do it. I could hear people screaming outside the limo but suddenly everything was quiet. The stalkers were gone.

Bill

We sat in the car, but i didn't feel safe. I was terrified and Katy was sitting in my knee, shaking and crying. I tried to be calm but it was impossible. I couldn't console her. I looked at Tom. He looked so weird and he was very, very pale. I had never seen him like that before. His lips were white and he made really weird noises. I realized that he was crying and i got terrified again. He never cried. And he hold his arm close to his chest, like he was trying to protect it. And than i saw it. His shirt were red and so was his arm. It was blood. I freaked out and started to scream.

- Tom! What happened to your arm? He looked at me, crying so much.

- One of the stalkers. She stabbed my arm with a knife. It hurts so much.

- Oh dear Tom, Katy said. She looked really worried. Your arm! We need to fix that.

One of the secutiry guards pulled of his shirt and started to fold it around his arm. Tom was shaking in his entire body and i stroked his back. Katy hugged him and he started to cry on her shoulder. He needed it and i hugged him too. We had a big grouphug and for the first time, for a very, very, long period i felt kind of safe. 

Katy

I was laying in Bill's arms, really exhausted. But i couldn't sleep. Everytime i closed my eyes i could see the stalkers infront of me. After the wild ride into the limo they scared me more than anything. It was impossible for me to sleep. Bill tried to stroke my back and scratch my arms too make me fall asleep but i couldn't. Neither could he. We were in our room, in our huge bed and just looked at each other. Suddenly, we could hear someone open our door. It was Tom. He looked at us. He had a bandage around his arm and he looked so painful. I felt so bad for him. He smiled carefully and said;

- I'm so sorry guys, but can i sleep here with you tonight? I'm so scared and i can't sleep. We said yes and he crawled down under the blanket. I slept in the middle and i had Bill on my right side and Tom on my left. I could feel that Tom was really sweaty. He breathed out.

- It feels much better now...

Two minutes later he was asleep. So was Bill. They probably felt good sleeping together. And i had a harder time thinking about the stalkers when they both were here. So two mintues later, i was asleep too.

The Fame - 16

Bill

I totally freaked out. The stalkers were out there to hurt us. I pulled Katy and Tom close to me. I could feel their bodies shaking, just like mine. At least i wasn't the only one that was scared. What was happening? Katy looked at the nurse infront of us and said;

- What are we going to do now? Are we going to stay here? How are we going to get out?

- I don't know. The nurse looked down on the ground. Just wait here for a few minutes, i'm gonna go and call some people. I'm gonna do my best to get you out from here. 

I could feel butterflies in my stomach. Crazy butterflies. What would happen too us if we walked outside the door? Would they attack Katy? They probably would. And what would happen with Tom? Would they hurt him too? It was hard to feel anything else than panic.

Me (Katy)

The nurse told us to sit down. We did but it didn't get any better. I could hear the stalkers scream into the hospital. I serioulsy just wanted to beat those crazy girls up. I was so mad. Bill thought that i was scared, i could see it. But i wasn't. I was so mad. Thanks to them, i could have lost my baby. I could have died. They ruined my and Bill's realitionship. They wouldn't get away with this. I could hear their disgusting voices scream stuff like; Katy is a fat whore! Bill is only together with her because he doesn't wanna be alone anymore! Katy is a stupid bitch and Bill hates you! Can you hear it, bitch? He H-A-T-E-S you! You ugly slut!

- Don't listen to them baby, it's not true. You know it. I love you, Bill replied over and over again. I just listened to his voice and ignored the stalkers words.

Tom

I smiled when i looked at Bill and Katy. They looked happy together and i knew that they could go through anything together.

Suddenly the nurse returned. She looked very serious. We looked at her.

- Your security guards are here. There is a limo waiting outside the hospital for you. There are about 12 guards. They will take you too the limo and drive you home. Okay?

- Okay, i said. Are the guards downstairs?

- Yes, she said. Hurry up now. I wanna get you out of here as soon as possible.

She didn't say it in a mean way. I understood her.

- We are very sorry that this happened, i said.

- It's okay. Now hurry up!

We ran down from the stairs and we met up with the guards. And than everything happened really fast.

Someone opened the big doors. Me, Bill & Katy had the security guards around us. And than we ran.

In that moment, i couldn't feel anything. It seemed like someone carried me to the limo. The world was quiet. So quiet. And we run. And run. I couldn't see that the limo came any closer. And why did i suddenly feel something sharp on my left arm?...

And than i looked at my left arm. It was covered with blood. One of the stalkers where running by my side with a knife and i freaked out. I screamed out loud and it broke the silence. This is the end, i thought for myself. We're not gonna make it.

I just wanted to give up.

Part 15 - The Fame

Me

What could i say, what could i do? Bill wouldn't listen to me when i said that this wasn't his fault. He just looked me with his big, sad eyes. I grabbed his hand and stroked it. We looked at each other. I could see that he was exhausted. His skin was pale and he was very cold. I told him to go and get some sleep. At first, he didn't want to leave me. But when i said that he was to tired to stay up he finally agreed and walked away from me. It took him about 5 minutes to just leave the room. I laughed at him and he started to smile.

- Why are you so happy now? I asked.
- Because you laughed. I haven't heard it for so long. He smiled again.
I laughed and told him to go away. Not in a mean way of course. He walked away and i fell asleep too, really tired.

Tom

I was walking in a dark room. It was completely dark, i couldn't see anything. I tried to find a door to get out from the dark room but i couldn't find anyone. I was just walking around in a circle when i suddenly heard someone screaming. I looked around but i couldn't see anything. But suddenly i saw a light. At first i couldn't see anything except long, dark shadows hitting something on the ground. But when my eyes got used to the light i could see 5 or 6 girls hitting one girl on the ground. She was screaming for help. I didn't see who it was at first but than i realized that it was her. Bill's girl. I got panic, screamed and tried to help her. But the dark shadows turned around and looked straight at me. They pushed her away and reached out their hands at me. I backed off but they just came closer and closer. Suddenly one of them grabbed my arm. I tried to push her away but another one grabbed my other arm. I was stuck. I couldn't move. I was so scared and one of the shadows pointed at Bills girl laying on the ground, than she leaned in close to my ear and whispered with a horrible voice; "It's your turn this time"....

I woke up, terrified. I was sweaty and i breathed really heavy. I had never had such a horrible nightmare. I was shaking. My heart was beating so fast that i was sure that everybody could hear it. I wanted to cry, i was so scared. The dream wasn't only horrible, it was real. I had seen how they had beated her down. But in the dream, they actually killed her. And now it was my turn. I pulled off my shirt and tried to breathe. Suddenly i saw Bill. He looked at me like i was a stranger.

- Hi Bill, i said and tried to sound normal.
- Hi Tom...he said with a very weird voice.
My mission failed.
- Is she okay? I asked to have something to talk about.
- Yeah, she is okay.
- When will she get out from this hospital?
- I don't know, maybe a week?
- Right. What should i say now?
- Tom?
- Yea? I said.
- You know that your not wearing a shirt, right? The nurse over there is checking you out big time. I looked at the nurse.
- I'm gonna pull on my shirt again. I was just sweaty.
- Okay. I'm gonna go and get some sleep. See you soon Tom.
- Sleep well. See you.

Bill walked away. I wanted to ask someone when she would get out from the hospital. I hated this place.
I asked the nurse that was checking me out and she said something about 2 or 3 days. I said thank you and than i went to tell Bill the good news.

3 days later - Bill

We were on our way to get home. I was so happy to get out from the hospital. I felt like i really needed a shower. I realized that i looked like shit. But my princess told me that i looked cute so i accepted that. She was okay and so was our baby. I had been so worried so i couldn't describe how happy i was that they were fine. She, me and Tom were on our way to walk out to our car when a doctor suddenly stopped us. I looked at Tom. I hoped that she wasn't going to say anything bad about my girl or our baby. But it was not about them.

- I'm so sorry guys, but you can't leave the hospital. We looked at each other, schocked.
- What do you mean? Tom said to her. She looked uncomfortable.
- There is a group of girls outside the hospital and they are really violent. I got a phone call and the girl i was speaking to said that you shouldn't leave. For your own security.
- WHAT? I screamed. Are you saying that we can't leave the hospital?
- Please sir, don't scream. I'm so sorry but they are really violent. We are going to call the police. Stay in here for a while. They are wearing long, black dresses. They have their faces covered up. They are screaming your name and they don't act like normal fans. Stay in here please!

Me

Covered up faces? Long black dresses? I got a lump in my stomach. I knew who they were. They were out to get us. It was the stalkers!

The Fame - Part 14

Me

- Are you okay? Tom asked me. He looked worried. I smiled a fake smile.

- I'm fine Tom...i said but my voice was weak. I was so scared and i couldn't hold it. He saw it.

- Should i ask Bill if he can come? He asked.

- No! I screamed. Or just wait a few minutes. I don't want him to see me like this. I knew that if he would see me shaking like i was freezing to death than he would just get even more worried than he already was. So i tried to lay down and relax, but it was impossible. I couldn't get the stalkers out of my head. I could just ask myself what they would do with me if they ever found me alone again. I knew that i had been lucky. I was still alive. But what would happen when they found out that i survived? I was sure they would go insane.

- Are you sure that you are okay? Tom looked at me. In that moment he looked like my dad. Really protective.

- I'm fine okay? You can go if you want to. I closed my eyes. In that moment i really just wanted everything to end. I wanted the whole world to end.

Tom

I stayed in the room for a few minutes but then i realized that she really wanted to be alone. I walked out of the room and i could see Bill sitting in the couch were i had left him before. I sat down.

- So...he said. What did she say? He looked nervous.

- Well...it's not like she's jumping up and down of happiness. I realized that i shouldn't have been sarcastic. It made everything worse for Bill.

- I was joking okay? I said. Calm down Bill. She is scared, but she can handle it. At least i think she can, i thought to myself. Bill looked at me like i was hiding something from him. I hated that look. He never looked like that, but when he did i knew he didn't trust me.

- I'm going to talk with her now he said. I want to meet her. I can't wait for it any longer. I didn't try to stop him, so i saw him walking away from me. I layed down in the couch. I was so tired. It didn't take much time until i was sleeping in the couch, having terrible nightmares.

Bill

I knocked on the door. I could hear someone saying "Come in" so i opened it. There on the bed i saw her, laying with her eyes closed. But she wasn't sleeping. I sat down on the bed and carefully i stroked her legs. She opened her eyes and saw me. She smiled. That made me smile back.

- Hi baby, she said with a very different voice that i wasn't used to. How are you?

- I'm fine i just...my words stucked in my throat. Sweetie...i missed you so much. She leaned into my arms and i hugged her. I don't know for how long i hold her, but it felt like i was doing it for years. Over and over again i whispered that i loved her and she said it back. But suddenly i started to feel really bad. I wanted to throw up. I was feeling so bad that i didn't know what to do. She looked at me, really worried.

- Bill are you okay? She touched my arm.

- No, i...i...i couldn't answer. I looked into her eyes and felt like i was going to fall into pieces. Everything was my fault. If she never had left the house to speak with my mom, this had never happened. I could have stopped her, but i didn't. If the stalkers would have killed her, i wouldn't sit here with her and tell her how much i loved her and hear her saying it back. If she had died...i couldn't blame anyone else than me. Everything was my fault.

Part 13 - The Fame

Bill

Somebody was shaking me. Everything was blurry. I tried to open my eyes but my head hurted so bad. I saw a nurse over, shaking my shoulders and trying to get contact. She spoke to me. I turned my head to the left and saw Tom, sitting on his knees next to. He tried to step back a bit, so he wouldn't be in the way. When i saw him it was like i got strenght. I quickly sat up and everything went black again.
- Oh fuck... i said to myself.
The nurse tried to make me lay down again, but i refused.
- Hey, you must listen to me. Lay down again, she said with her exxagarated calm voice.
It just made me more annoyed. I sat up again and after i while i could see clear again.
- Tom, i said and smiled and looked at my brother.
- My Bill, he said and wrapped his arms gently around me. You hit your head in the ground when you ran. Why were you running?
I started to think. I really couldn't remember anything. After i while everything that happened got to my head.
- Hey Tom, listen.
- Come here first, he said and took my hand. We went back to the waiting room and sat down in couch together. I thought maybe that you wanted to speak to me alone and not with all the nurses around.
I nodded.
- Ofcourse.
I took a deep breath.
- I know which girls who did it, Tom.
- What do you mean?
He looked at me like i was stupid but i knew it was as simple as he didn't understand what i was talking about.
- The people who beated her down.
He stared at me with his mouth a little bit open.
- How... how could you know? You weren't even there.
- She told me that they said something like 'It's her'. Do you remember the stalkers who were following us for months?
- How could i forget, he sighed.
- Well it all makes sense, since they call themselves 'fans'. They thretened our whole family. They also spoke out on the internet about us dating and having girlfriends. They said that if we ever got a girlfriend they would kill her, easily. They are looking for her, Tom. Wherever she goes. She can't be safe anywhere.
Tom just stared at me unable to say anything.
- I can't believe this... Is it possible? They are back.
We both stay silent for a while.
- You should tell her, Bill.
- How? How would i tell her that there's a bunch of girls that wants to kill her?
- I'll do it for you. You've been dealing with so much lately. If it's okay for you ofcourse...
I nodded and he left the room.

Tom

I slowly walked down the hospital corridors. I tried to figure out what to say. The closer i got to her door the more nervous i got. I walked slower just to have more time to think. The thoughts and voices in my head were bouncing around, back and forth. I slowly opened her door and looked in. She was laying there on her bed, she looked at me and smiled weakly.
- Hey Tom.
- Hello, i said and walked up to her bed and sat down next to her.
- Is Bill alright?
I nodded. He was alright.
- He fell in the corridor while he was running. I still don't really know why he ran like a maniac but... yeah.
She looked at me and waited for me to continue.
- I've got something to tell you.
She remained silent.
- You know the people that attacked you... Do you remember just a little bit what they looked like?
- Well, they were girls. I didn't see too much of them. They were wearing black jackets and some of them were wearing a scarf around their head and just showed their eyes. It was all very scary.
- I think i know who did, i said and took a deep breath.
The white walls in the hospital room blinded me. This enviroment was terrible and i wanted to get away here with Bill and her as soon as possible.
- It was the stalkers. The same girls who followed me and Bill for 6 months, and thretenead us with killing our mom.
She looked at me with scared eyes.

Me

I could not believe what Tom just told me. They were out to get me. They wanted to get rid of me. I felt how my whole body was shaking and the white walls were attacking me from all sides, back, front, right, left.

Part 12 - The Fame

Bill

I woke up and felt that Tom was stroking my back and whispering stuff in my ear such as 'Everything will be okay my brother'. I was laying with my head in his lap. I sad up quickly and looked at Tom:
- Oh shit! Did i fall asleep? What did i miss? Did anything happen? Please tell me...
I was panicing.
- Calm down bro, Tom said and softly stroked my hair. Everything is alright. I thought you needed some sleep.
I nodded, saw Tom smiling at me and then a nurse came. Everything were so blurry at that hospital. It gave me flashbacks from the night when the paparazzis wouldn't leave us alone, my girl paniced and passed out. I hated the flashbacks. Maybe mostly cause we broke up then. We got together the moment after, but still... It was a terrible moment of our relationship.

- You can make a short visit, the nurse said and looked at me strictly.
I shined up and smiled a bit.
- Really?
- Yes. Come with me.
The nurse was really annoying and short in her answers but it didn't matter that moment cause i was gonna see my love for a while at least. Tom followed me and i followed the nurse as she opened the door to her room. I saw her there, laying on the bed, as beautiful as she always is. She smiled weakly.
- Hey Bill, she said. Come here.
- Hey my angel, i said and walked up to her bed and sat down next to her.
I took her hands in mine and stroked them softly. I was calm now, not panicing like yesterday. Yesterday i saw her for 10 seconds and she was blood drained. This was much better.
- I don't even know what happened with you yesterday, baby, i said and tried to get some answers out of her.
- A gang of girls, beated me down on the street. I think they were... 5 maybe 6 people. I don't really remember...
She started to mumble. I couldn't hear quite what she was trying to say.
- They said something like 'It's her'. I don't remember really, she said.
- You're tired and confused. You should get some more rest, i said and kissed her forhead.
She nodded. It was a short visit and i already missed her the moment i stepped out of the room.

I was sitting in the hallway, thinking about her and what she told me. I couldn't understand what she said when she mummbled... Suddenly i realized; IT WAS THE SAME PEOPLE WHO STALKED ME AND TOM FOR 6 MONTHS!
'It's her!'
They were looking for her, my girlfriend. They wanted to end her. They wanted to end us. I started to panic again. I couldn't let my girl walk out alone anymore. I started to run, run, run, trough the hallway until i blacked out.

Part 11 - The Fame

Bill

I felt a lot better now. I was sitting in the livingroom, playing with Tom. We had a really great time. Suddenly, my phone rang. I looked at it to see who it was. It was her. I smiled, picked up the phone and said;

- Hi baby how are you? Are you coming home soon? But it wasn't her that answered.

- Ehm...i'm not your baby, but this girl here might be your girlfriend.

What was this? Who was this person that spoked with me?

- Who are you? I said.

- I'm Ben. I was walking with my dog and i find her on the street. I've called the ambulance, but it doesn't look good...

What the heck? I didn't understand anything. This man had my girl's cellphone, he said stuffs about a girl on the street and the ambulance? What was happening?

- I'm sorry Ben, but i think this is the wrong number.

- Are you sure? He said back. Cause i found her on the street, covered with blood and i thought that the best would be to call the ambulance. She had her bag and i picked up her phone and called someone with the name "Honey", so i guess you are her boyfriend?

- Who's boyfriend? Who's that girl on the street? Why is she covered with blood? Why have you called the ambulance? I had panic now. I didn't understand anything, but i was scared. Really scared.

- It's a small girl, not too tall. She has long hair, she's wearing a white shirt and tight jeans. She has a black bag and a pink phone. Does it sound like you know this girl?

-Yes...yes i said. I was terrified now.

- Bill, who is it? Tom asked me, but i didn't answer.

- You should know then that she has passed out, she has blood all over her body and she is not breathing, Ben continued.

- Wha-a-at? Why? I was shaking now. I still wasn't sure what was happening.

- I think that someone has beated her. She has brands from shoes on her face and stomach...Here is the ambulance. I gotta go.

- NO! i screamed out loud. Wait! You have to tell me were they are taking her.

- She's going to the hospital. They will take her to the hospital were the shopping center is, you know were it is, right?

- Yes i do. I'm coming. He hung up. I was shaking, my body was so heavy. Tom looked at me, he was worried.

- Bill? He said. I didn't answer. What happened? Are you okay? I still didn't answer. I said something like "hospital" and "shopping center" and Tom said that he would take me over there.

- Breathe Bill, breathe. It doesn't have to mean that it's her, okay? I couldn't answer. Cause i wanted to believe him. But i couldn't. Cause deep inside of me, i knew that it was her. I felt like i died. I have no idea how me and Tom came to the hospital, but suddenly we were there.

Tom

I grabbed Bill's arm, pulled him into the hospital. I was really scared to. Not only because i was worried if it really was her, cause Bill didn't act like normal. He stared out in the air, without watching anything.

- Please Bill, look at me, i asked but he didn't answer. He didn't even look at me. I asked a girl if they have got any new patient and she pointed at a little room. She seemed scared for Bill, cause he still watched straight out in the air. I took his hand and we walked to the room. Scared to see what there would be, i looked in.

She was laying on a bed, destroyed. She was really covered with blood. Her eyes were closed and her lips were cracked. I could only see blood,blood and blood and i felt sick. But my feelings were nothing compared to Bill's.

In the minute he saw her, he started to scream. He cried so much and it totally broke me. He ran too the door and started to pull it. I grabbed him and tried to pull him back, but he was struggling against me like crazy.

-Let me go! He screamed. I need her! She can't leave me i can't live without her! He struggled against me so much and i felt horrible. But i knew that i couldn't let him get in, cause he would go even more crazy.

- Bill stop! I'm gonna take you away...he interrupted me.

- Don't you even dare! Tears were falling from his eyes like a flood. I can't live without her she can't just leave me! He started to push me. I need her let me get to her!

- You're not helping her by doing this Bill... but then he just cried even more. He didn't have powers anymore to struggle, so he fell down on a couch. He was shaking, crying and screaming. He said stuffs like "don't leave me please, life isn't worth anything without you" and i sat down.

I sat there the whole night. Bill cried like it was impossible to stop. I said stuffs for myself like "Please let her survive...please. For Bill. For them. They need each other." I had panic. If she wouldn't survive...Bill probably wouldn't survive. And without him, my life wasn't worth anything.

Part 10 - The Fame

Me

I woke up next morning, feeling so tired. But the first thing that came up in my head was Simone. Her name was stuck in my brain, it was impossible to get out. I didn't know what to do! I released myself from Bill's arms and then i walked out from our bedroom. I sat down in the kitchen, lost in my mind. What should i do? There must be something. I looked at the phone. I could call her, but she would probably just hung up on me. I knew she couldn't stand me. So i decided too talk with her, face to face. I could walk too her house, it wasn't very far away. I had to do it. I walked back to my and Bill's bedroom. He was laying down, but he wasn't sleeping. He saw me and smiled.

- Goodmorning, my little princess. How are you doing today?

- I'm fine baby. How are you?

- I'm great. He looked at me. You don't look very happy though. Is it mom?

I didn't answer. I felt stupid everytime he said mom or Simone. But he seemed to understand.

- I got it. He looked at me. Are you thinking about anything special right now?

- Well...i was thinking about going home too your mom and talk with her today. He looked at me, like i was some strange person that he had never seen before.

- Seriously? I don't think it's such a good idea. He didn't pay attention to me anymore, he was playing around with his hands.

- Bill baby, please. I have to do this. It's the only thing i can do to make your mom at least accept me!

- Yea...i guess so. When are you going?

- About an hour. Just gonna get ready.

- Okay.

He didn't say much more.

Bill

She walked out from the room. I felt weird! What was i suppose to do? Honestly, i didn't want her to go. She was such a sensitive subject. My mom hated when i talked about her. I layed down under the blanket. I knew that it wouldn't matter what i told her, she would go anyway. There was nothing i could do! Ah! I just wanted her to be with me right now, under the blanket and with no problems in the whole world. That would be amazing.

Me

I was ready to leave. I opened the door to our bedroom. Bill was laying under the blanket, breathing heavy. I pulled it away and leaned in to give him a hug.

- Bye baby. See you later. I gave him a small kiss, but he didn't answer it.

- Bye, he said quietly. He looked mad. I felt hurt and i ran out from the room and closed the door. I grabbed my shoes and my jacket and ran out from the house. Get yourself together, i tried to tell myself. But i was upset. I decided to run. I run all the way until i could see Simone's house. I carefully knocked on the door. She opened up and when she saw me, she looked surprised.

- What are you doing here? She said, not in a mean way but i could hear that she wasn't happy too see me.

- Please Simone, i just wanna talk. Just for a little while. She didn't look happy at all.

- Okay...for a little while, she said and i stepped in.

Bill

I was still in my bed, trying to not think about mom and her. But i couldn't think about anyhting else. What have you done? i said to myself in my head, so angry. They are probably fighting so much right now! How could you let her go? I tried to cover my ears with my pillow to not hear the angry voice, but it was all over me. Suddenly Tom walked in my room and asked me if i wanted to play a game with him. I said yes, just so he wouldn't think that i was doing something crazy. We started to play, but the only thing i could think about was mom and my baby. What were they doing right now?

Me

( 4 hour later )

I was on my way home. I felt a lot better now. We had talked and Simone didn't seem to know if she was going to like me or hate me, but i felt good. She accepted me now, which was the only thing i cared about. It was dark outside now. Bill and i always slept until the day was almost over. Normally i liked the dark, but right now i just wanted to get home. So i was on my way home, singing Monsoon until i heard something behind me. Slowly i turned around.

There was about 5 people behind me, i couldn't see if it was boys or girls. But they were all dressed in black. I turned around again and i started to walk a little faster. They were not out to get me, i knew it. But i realized that they were walking faster now to. I didn't like this. I moved faster, so did they. What was happening? I was starting to get panic. The people behind me walked faster and faster all the time. Soon i could hear them just a few steps behind. I could here someone saying; "It's her...." now i got panic for real. I couldn't help it. I started to run. So did they. I knew that they were after me now. I ran for my life, but suddenly someone grabbed my hair, pushed me down on the ground and i could see the blood on my hands. All the people started to hit me, kick me and i screamed. They started to kick my stomach and i felt so scared. They were going to kill my baby! I tried to protect it, but they started to hit my face and i could feel warm blood all over me. But suddenly they just run away. I couldn't move. I couldn't get up.

I knew that i wouldn't make this. I looked straight up in the sky. When i layed down there i could only think about one person.

Goodbye Bill, i love you...i said to myself in my head until everything turned black.

Part 9 - The Fame

Me

Oh, great. She just hung up on me. I felt how my eyes went teary. I just wished for her understanding for once and not just ignorance. She is Bill's mother after all. I am in love with Bill and we're going to have a baby together, i can't believe she chose to push me away instead of just being happy for me and him. I curled up under a blanket in our big bed and buried my face in the pillow. I couldn't help it, but i just bursted out in tears. So... i was going to carry a baby and Simone didn't even wanted it for me and Bill. It felt great... yeah, really. I heard someone coming into the room. His worried voice came closer to me.
- Baby!? What's going on, he said and sat next to me on the bed.

He started to stroke my hair, crawled down under the blanket, wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer. He started to nuzzle my neck carefully. I couldn't stop crying. He wiped off a tear from my cheek.

- Tell me, baby. It will feel better for you.
- So... i started. I called Simone... about the pregnancy thing.
- What did she say? he asked.
- Not too much. She hung up on me.
He pulled his fingers trough my hair and started to whisper sweet things in my ear.

- Everything will be alright, baby. We will sort things out with her. I'll call her, okay?
I nodded. But i still felt terrible.
- Bill... it feels like she hates me.
- She don't, baby. She don't hate you.

Bill

Only to make her feel better i just said that my mom didn't hate her. I know she didn't hate her, but... i knew that she always had been negative when it came to our relationship. Unfortanly she had to change those opinions, because i had plans on making this girl mine. She was already mine, but make her mine... more. I knew that someday i would make her my wife. I just had to. I held her really close, with my arms around her neat body. I could hear her heart beat.
- Can you please call her now, baby? she said and looked at me.
- Ofcourse.
I kissed her forehead lightly.

I heard her pick up the phone.
- Hey mom.
I was being short on purpose, to make her understand that i wanted to bring up something serious.

- Hey Bill. It was a long time ago since i heard from you. I've missed you a lot, she said´with a pretty happy voice.
- I missed you too mom. I just wanted to talk to you about one thing...
- Yeah, sure. What is it son?
I took a deep breath and decided to go straight to the subject.
- I think you're treating my girl in the wrong way, she never did...
She cutted me off before i even finished my scentece.
- Bill, you know that your relationship with her is wrong.

- You can at least let me finish, mom.

She was quiet.
- Why do you need to treat her like you do? Yes, she is a couple of years younger than me, but she's over 18.

- She's over 18... now. She wasn't when you met.

- So what's wrong about our relationship?
I sounded upset. I couldn't help it.
- Everything Bill. Everything. I just can't stand this. You know it wont last forever. It's just ridicolous. Just another of your short relationships.

- MOM!
She hung up on me.
I was so pissed off. First she told me that she didn't believe in me and her, then she told me that our relationship wasn't going to last and then... she hung up on me!? I felt anger run trough my body.

I was so disapointed in her. Why would she treat me and my baby like this? I went back to our bedroom. She looked at me and even smiled a bit. So beautiful. She waited for me to say how the call went.
- Well... she hung up on me,
- On you too?
She sat up in the bed quickly and looked shocked with her mouth opened a bit.
- I can't believe her... she sighed.
- Not me either, honestly, i said.
- Come here, baby.
She held me in her arms and rocked me tenderly.
- Everything will be alright, we'll fix this.
She suddenly took the role and comforted me. Her calm voice really helped me. I started to cry softly. We crawled down under the blanket again, where we could be safe. It was so warm. In fact i was cold, but with her i always felt warm. My love for her was so strong and endless. Für immer es und ich. I don't remember anything after that. I think i fell asleep in her arms.

Part 8 - The Fame

Bill

First i just started at her, with my mouth open a little bit. Then i realized that i looked like a jerk and closed it again. I also realized that i had to say something.
- Is it for real?
- Yes, Bill. It is for real.

Me

l saw a big smile on his face grow. He threw himself into my arms and hugged me. He lifted me up in the air and spinned me around over and over. We laughed. We sat down on the bed and he was so excited.
- So... this means... i'm going to be a father? he almost screamed.
- Yes, Bill. You're going to be the father to the baby i'm carrying.
He leaned over and started a long passionate kiss.
- I love you baby, he said. I couldn't be happier right now.
I took his hands.
- I love you too, don't you ever forget.
We started a huge make out session on the bed and it felt like we were teenagers again.

Bill

- We need to call everyone and tell, i said.
I was so excited. She invited all of them over for dinner; Tom, Jessica, Georg, Emelie, Gustav and Hannah.

We were standing in the kitchen together, cooking a huge dinner. Everytime we got the chance we turned our heads to each other and smiled, i knew in that moment that we both were so happy. Suddenly she splashed water at me.
- You little... i said and laughed.
I threw some cucumber pieces on her. I saw her shocked face and laughed. It all ended up in a big foodfight. While we were in the middle of throwing food on each other the doorbell rang. She went to the hallway to open for the guys. When they saw her and the messy kitchen they were surprised.
- Ey, guys. What have you been doing? Tom asked.
We giggled and hugged each other.
- Come and sit down, my girl said and lead the guys to the table.
We made home made pizza for dinner. She came closer to my ear, touched it with her lips and whispered;
- I can't wait baby, please let me tell them right now.
I nodded. I wanted to see their reactions too.
- Guys, let me tell you the important thing about this dinner.
I looked at her. The love of my life. So beautiful.

Me

I took a deep breath and said;
- I'm pregnant, with Bill's baby.
Everything went quiet. They looked at me and Bill. I wasn't sure if it was a positive or negative reaction. Suddenly they jumped up from the chairs, cheered out congratulations loud and hugged us tight.
- Oh darling, i'm so happy for you, Hannah said and kissed my forehead. Thanks god it was nothing else but this.
- Oh my, Bill really is in love, Tom said and grined.
Bill bashed Tom softly in his stomach.
- Let's eat now, i have terrible pizza cravings, i said and laughed.

Bill pulled me out in the hallway.
- We need to tell our parents too.
- Ofcourse i'll call them later.
He gave me a quick kiss.

I decided to call them as soon as the guys left. I know Bill's parents never liked the fact that i was younger than him, but i was hoping for them to be happy for us this time. I pressed the right number, waited for someone to answer...

- Hey Simone, i said and tried to sound friendly.
- Hey you, she said.
It was quiet for a while.
- Ehm, so how are you, i said to conversate?
- Pretty good.
- Well, i have something to tell you.
...
She didn't say anything. Crap. This was not going to be good.
- I'm pregnant... with Bill's baby.
She coughed in the telephone. Then she hung up on me.

Part 7 - The Fame

Bill

l watched her sleep. It was the world's most beautiful thing to me. I saw her breath in and out, her green eyes were closed and her long black lashes were down. I could lay like this the whole day and just watch her.

Me

I woke up and Bill was smiling at me.
- Goodmorning darling, he said with his soft voice.
- Goodmorning baby, i said and smiled.
He started to nuzzle my neck softly. I felt happiness trough my whole body.
- Last night was amazing, he said.
I nodded and agreed. It really was amazing. We were laying there in our big bed with the morningsun shining trough our window and cuddling together. Suddenly i felt sick.
- Bill, i don't feel good.
- How are you darling?
He instantly sat up in bed, held his arm around me and looked worried.
- I feel like i'm going to throw up.
- Lay down baby, he said.
He started to stroke my hair.
- I'll go and make you some tea, he said.

I woke up later. I found a cold cup of tea on my nighttable. I watched the clock. I had been sleeping for hours. I turned my head around and found Bill. He was sleeping. Poor little thing, i bet he stayed up and waited for me to wake up. I kissed his forehead softly then i went to the bathroom. I felt like i just had my period or something. But it was a little bit different this time. I decided to call Georg's girlfriend, Emelie. Since she's a nurse she would know better about this than me. It was just a quick call, we didn't talk too many scentences.
- ... just make a test. It's better to do it and to have wrong than not do it and walking around with it without knowing. Good luck darling, she said.
I ran to the store, right away. It took one second for me to find the right thing. I ran back home and locked myself into the bathroom.

Bill

I woke up and she was not there. I thought that she maybe was at the bathroom. I stayed in bed and waited for her.

Me

Panic. Was i going to say it? I couldn't be quiet about it. He would notice after a while. I knew he was going to be happy. Maybe shocked, but at least a little happy. I was sitting in the bathroom and watched myself in the mirror. I looked so tired. My eyes were totally dead. My body was there, but not my mind. We've been living like this for many years now. We've been living with all the bad things that fame comes with; stress, constant control and people following us wherever we went. It was about to ruin us, our relationship. I loved him so much, i needed him more than anything in my life, he made me happy. I looked at a dead soul in the mirror.

Bill

She came back to our bedroom. I smiled at her but she gave me a serious face back. She took my hands.
- I've got something to say, she said.
I waited for her to say it. My heart raised and beated 100 times faster.
She looked away and them in my eyes again, took a deep breath and said:
- I'm pregnant.

Part 6 - The Fame

Me

It felt amazing when Bill and i finally walked out from that hospital. I was fine after the attack of the paparazzis and to be close to Bill again was the best feeling in the entire world. He held my hand really tight and he was walking as close as possible to me, i could feel his bodyheat. I loved it and i felt like i was walking in that dream the first time we met over again. He turned his head around to me all the time and smiled his absolutely most gorgeous smile. I couldn't help but to melt. He took me to the limousine which was going to take us home. We started to make out in the backseat and he touched me all over my body.
- Oh baby, i missed you terribly much, he moaned quietly.
I kissed him back, it was a long kiss filled with passion.
In the same moment as the limousine took the way into the center of the town Bill said;
- As you understand, we're not going home tonight. I have a little surprise for you and me, he said and looked extremly sexy.
- Oh really, my teddybear? i said and rubbed my nose against his.
- Really, he said and bited the tip of my nose playfully.

Bill

I had planned everything into the smallest detail, it was going to be perfect. When i saw her surprised but happy face when the limousine drove downtown i got happy too. My heart was warm and filled with love, for her only. We arrived to one of the best restaurants in the whole town. She smiled to me, looked so beautiful and said;
- This night can't get any better.
I thought to myself that ofcourse it was going to get better. A lot better.
We had a corner to ourselves, we sat there to late night, snuggled and cared more about each other than the food. First she stroked the inside of my legs under the table sneaky and lovefully but it was changed into a sexual touch after a while. She looked at me with a fire in her eyes. I have to admit that i was kind of turned on. I started to play with her fingers under the table, suddenly i stood up straight, pulled her with me and said;
- Come, i have something special for you.

Me

I love Bill's surprises. He has always something extra. The fact that he's doing it for me is amazing. We ran out in the chilly night hand in hand and jumped into the limousine. I started to touch him again, but surprisingly enough he took my hands away.
- Wait a second, my sexy bunny. Save what you've got.
I didn't understand what he was doing but i listened. It was kind of hard to keep my hands off him. I was so sexually attracted to him that moment. He kept looking at me with his special eye rape sight, which made me even more turned on.

Bill

We jump out of the car, everything was going perfect so far. I was so freaking horny of her touch, i have to say that i wanted her to touch me but it was even more fun tease her by telling her not to do it. I booked a hotel room, 5 stars, really nice. When she realized that we were by a hotel and not back home she jumped into my arms, i lifted her up and she kissed me all over my cheeks.
- I love you, Bill.
She looked better than ever.

Me

He was so horny, so were i. He pushed me into the hotel room, down on the bed. He started to take off our coats. Not many seconds later he was standing in front of me shirtless, so sexy. He leaned over me and tried to look for the zip on my dress.
- You're so damn hot in that dress, he said. I have to do you.
I was already wet and i was so in for it.
When i was lying in bed in underwear only he asked for me to take off his pants and underwear too. I crawled up onto him and started to stroke him between his legs, trough the pants. I could feel that he was so hard, already. He moaned quietly that he wanted me to hurry up. I took it a litte bit more slow, just to tease him that little extra bit. He was moaning louder and louder all the time. I pulled off his pants and started to touch his thing trough the pants. He was going crazy now and forced me to take them off. He unbuttoned my bra and pulled off my pants, rolled over, so he was on top of me and started to push himself into me. It felt so nice. I started to moan and he moaned back that he liked when i was making noise. Everything was perfect in the room. We were laying in a huge bed with nice sheets, the room was filled with roses and living candles all around us. Bill was a crazy animal.

Bill

I was working her really hard. I was getting harder and harder and i got a huge orgasm inside of her. She screamed my name and how good i was in pleasing her. We were both so sweaty but i think we both could agree about that this was the best sex we had in months. All the frustration just rinsed off us. We were laying there together, in each other's arms. I stroked her hair and she was laying on my chest.

Me

I loved to lay on his chest, feel him breath, hear his heart beat. I loved him, so much.

Part 5 - The Fame

Bill

My heart was beating like mad. It felt like i was going to pass out. What did i just do? The only thing i could see in my head was her crying and devastated face when i walked out from the door to the hospital. When i walked trough the hallway i could hear her cry. I don't really think i could hear her in reality but it was like her crying voice was being played in my head, over and over again. Deep inside i knew that i didn't want to do this. One part of my head said that it was better for her and that she would live happily but the other part said that she was going to cry, forever and ever. I was heartbroken and i was so stupid for doing what i just did. I walked out from the door, away from the terrible hospital, white walls, crying patients, panic...

Me

I could still not belive what he just did and said. I was shaking because i was crying so much. He said that he loved me but why did he leave me then? I couldn't understand a thing in that moment, the only thing i saw was the white walls and i felt like i was going to be here my whole life. Why would he do this? I kept asking myself over and over. Why would he do this? I couldn't understand.


I had fallen asleep, strangely enough. The smell of the sheets were not pleasant, the only thing they smelled was hospital and old people. I was tired. My head was filled up with everything but nothing. While i was half asleep i could hear someone come into the run. Nurses... Time for a control again i thought. I was too tired to lift my head.

Bill

What did i just do to myself? And the most important, what did i just do to HER? I had to do this. I started to run, passed doors with people, but i couldn't see her. Everybody was looking at me and a nurse even told me to slow down. But i didn't care atall. The only thing i wanted was her, i wanted to see her face. I ran into her room, and there is saw her little head lying on the pillow. So sweet and beautiful. I placed my hand on her shoulder.

Me

I felt somebody touching me, i turned my head around. I was so tired but when i saw who it was my mouth was wide open. His makeup was all over his face, he looked like a terrible, beautiful mess to me. He opened up his arms. He was crying. I fell in his arms. He stroked my back slowly while he whispered in my ear that everything was going to be okay. In fact he was the one who needed comfort, i never saw him cry as much as this time.
- I'm so sorry babygirl, he said.
I just hugged him and rubbed my nose against his softly.
- I'm so stupid. You know i don't want to have anything else but you. I don't know what i was doing. Can you forgive me?
I looked him deeply in his crying eyes and said:
- Ofcourse, i can forgive you. And don't you ever say that you're stupid.
I touched his lips, we started a kiss. After a while he told me that i had to rest because the day had been really crazy. I laied down in bed, he placed a chair next to it and sat down in it. He took my hand, started to play with my fingers. He sat there all night, while i was sleeping. I felt secure.

When i woke up next morning, i was happy. But still i wondered, why did Bill have to leave me? Even if it was short. When i looked in his eyes i could see some kind of uncertanity... and it scared me.

Part 4 - The Fame

Me

I woke up, feeling completly horrible. My head was so heavy and i felt like i had lost my brain. I couldn't feel my legs. Were was i? I opened my eyes slowly. I was in a white room, it was cold and i was freezing. On a chair a few steps away from me sat Bill. He was so pale, he looked like he was more dead than alive. He was tired, i could see it. His hair was messed up and his clothes were dirty. But his eyes was wide open. He stared at me and his body just screamed out how worried he was.

- Bill? i said quietly, it scared me how lifeless he looked. But when i said his name, he immeditly came back to life. He run to the bed.

- Omg honey how are you? Are you okay? Talk with me! Are you awake? His hands were shaking.

- I'm okay baby! i said, i tried to calm him down. Were am i? Are you okay? He ignored the second question.

- We are on a hospital. You passed out last night...do you remember the paparazzis? They wouldn't let us go, not even when you fell to the ground. Fucking idiots. He looked upset.

- What did they do Bill? Are the other guys okay? And how are the girls doing?

- They are all okay. You were the only one to pass out. We were so worried, they are all out there. The paparazzis run after us, we couldn't escape from them. They are still outside the hospital, waiting for us...His voice died. I stroked his hand.

- It will be okay Bill, i promise...But i knew it wouldn't. And i didn't know what to say. But suddenly Tom walked into the room.

- Are you awake now? How are you doing sweetheart? He leaned over me, i could see that he was worried to.

- I'm fine Tom. But my head hurts a little. Are you okay?

- I'm great. I will tell the others that you feel fine. They have been crazy! I'm happy that you are okay. He walked out again and i felt how tired i was.

- You need to sleep honey, Bill said. I can see that you are tired.

- Do you stay here with me?

- Of course. Sleep now, i'm here with you. I closed my eyes and a few minutes later i was asleep.

Bill

I felt so bad. Not because i was tired or looked like crap, but i felt like i was a bad person. I ruined her life. When i watched her, i could see that she wanted to go out and feel free. But just because she was my girlfriend, it was impossible. What was i doing? She couldn't be with me. She deserved so much better than this. All this fan-hate, crazy paparazzis and not being able to go out was to much for her. I could live with it, but not her. I knew that her life was bad when she was with me. I had to save her. And i knew how. But when i realized what i had to do, i started to cry. I fell down on her body, shaking and crying so much.

- I'm sorry honey, i really are. The best thing to do right now was to leave, but i couldn't do it. I had to wait for her.

Me

I felt something on my body. It woke me up, i opened my eyes. Bill was laying on me and he cried.

- Bill what's wrong? i said and i sat up. He didn't say anything and i got worried. Bill what is it? i said again, higher this time. He stopped crying and looked me in my eyes.

- Baby...his intonation scared me. He never spoked like that. I didn't know what to say or do. But he started to talk again.

- I'm so sorry for what i have done, he said. I ruin everything for you. You can't go out on the street, you can't do anything without getting hate and that is only my fault. You are worth more than this. I...i...

He looked at me. I couldn't breathe. What was he saying?

- I can't be with you. We... we need to split up.

Bill

She stared at me with her eyes wide open. She didn't breathe and i felt terrible. I would hurt her again by screwing up her life. But this had to be done. I wasn't good for her. But suddenly she just breaked down. She cried and i started to cry to.

- Why Bill? Why? I love you and i wanna be with you! I don't care about all this around us, i just wanna live with you! I couldn't hear those kind of stuffs right now, i had to stop her.

- Please, listen to me. I'm not breaking up with you because i don't love you, i love you to the end of the world and i will never love anyone else this much! But can't you see it? I'm destroying your life! Everything is my fault and you deserve a better guy than me!

- No that's not true! Please Bill, just stop! She started to cry even more.

- Honey...i can't. I destroy your life! I love you so much...but i can't do this anymore.

I leaned over her and gave her a last kiss. I'm so sorry honey. Forgive me, please. I will always love you.

And with those words i left the room. I felt like my heart was bleeding. My tears was falling and falling and i didn't do anything to stop them.

Part 3 - The Fame

Me

I woke up next to Bill and the sun was shining trough our bedroom window. Bill was still sleeping and had his arms around me. When i looked at him it reminded me that he was feeling better. One month ago all of the guys were so tired of everything that had to do with fame. The break was well needed, i was so happy that they were less stressed out.

I slowly tried to raise up from the bed and take away Bill's arms that was wrapped around me, without waking him up. I came into the living room i saw Hannah, Gustav's girlfriend. She is so cute, short, thin and blonde. She and Gustav looked simply perfect next to each other.
- Goodmorning, she said and smiled a big happy smile. She raised up from the couch, opened up her arms and gave me a big hug. I miss you, it was so long ago since i saw you! she filled in.
- Hey darling! i screamed. We sat down in the couch together.

- How are you doing? she asked me. We hadn't talked for a long time. I didn't know if she knew about the rumor with Bill hitting me, so i explained it for her. She looked upset.

- That's horrible! How can a person come up with something like that? Was it really a fan? We talked about it for a long time.

- I don't know why the fans are making up rumors. I guess they want us to split us up. I looked down on the floor. Hannah stroked my back. She was so kind. I realized that the fans only made up rumors about me and Bill. Georg's girlfriend Emelie and Tom's girlfriend Jessica was accepted. But not me.

- Are you okay honey? She looked at me. I could see that she was worried.

- I'm fine. She could see that i didn't want to talk about it anymore so she said:

- I have an idea. Do you wanna go out with all the guys, Jess and Emelie? We could go out and eat and just relax. Forget about everything for a while. Do you wanna do that? I smiled.

- Of course! Great idea. We can tell the guys when they wake up.

Bill

I was totally exhausted. I opened up my sleepy eyes and looked around. I saw that she wasn't in bed with me. I jumped up and run out from the bedroom. For some reason i just wanted to be close to her, all the time. She was in the livingroom with Hannah. When she saw me, she smiled so big and she gave me a hug. I hugged her like we had been away from each other for months.

- Baby are you okay? she asked me.
- Yes, i just woke up and he first thing i thought was to be close to you.
I smiled to him.
- I'm right here.
She hugged me harder, took my hand and we went into the kitchen where Tom, Jessica, Gustav, Hannah, Georg and Emelie were preparing big breakfast.
- Goodmorning, everyone said.
I liked to be around all of them. They were not just my friends, they were my family. I could trust them to the fullest.
- Goodmorning, we answered and smiled.

I saw how Emelie were sitting in Georg's lap and they were cuddling. Jessica and Tom started to make a little bit fun of me and my babe. I could see how they were whispering to each other.

- ... they are so cute, glued to each other.
Tom came closer to me and pulled me out in the hallway.

- There's just something i have to tell you, Tom said.
I looked at him with a surprised sight.
- It's nothing serious, he laughed. I just have to tell you that the girl you found is perfect for you. You look so happy together. For the first time in years i can see you smile and laugh genuinly.
- You don't know how much that means to me, i said and we hugged each other.

When we came back into the kitchen everybody seemed very excited and talked about later tonight. We were going out on a restaurant for dinner, all together, just like the good old times. All the girls were talking about what they were going to wear, it was hilarious to listen to. We were all guys laughing to togehter, it felt wonderful to laugh.

Me

We were standing in front of the mirror, doing our make up and hair at the same time. The guys were calling for us down there.
- HURRY UP!

- We're done soon, we said a giggled, since we all knew that it was not that soon.
We ran down the stairs together, our men were standing there in a row and all looked so handsome. Each one of them took their us in the hand and give he little kiss on our cheek. Outside there was waiting a black, fancy limousine. They opened the door for us like real gentlemen. In the limousine they poured up champagne for us. I never really liked champagne, but i still drank it. Sometimes i did. I made a stupid face when i was drinking because i really didn't like it, Bill started to laugh and told me that i was so cute.

Bill

We arrived to the restaurant. I was quite worried that there would show up tons of paparzzis but it was so calm. We went in there, it was so beautiful. Roses and living candles everywhere, just like it loved it. We were sitting and talking, laughing and telling stories by the table. Mostly we were talking memories, Devilish. How small we were, it wasn't that long ago. How fast we developed, that our fame came so fast. Then we started to talk about what was happening, right here, right now. I turned my head around to my liebe.
- You're my future.
She looked at me and her eyes were smiling just as much as her lips. She leaned over and gave me a kiss. I started to play a bit with her fingers.
- Stop making love by the table, Tom said.
Ofcourse it was a joke. Tom is always making up jokes.
- Shut up, i said and gave him a little smile.

When dinner was over, we were so full of food. Drunk too, but happy. Life was feeling wonderful.

Me

When we came out from the safe door, out to the big world, the fresh and chilly nightair hitted us like a wall. Bill's arms instantly were wrapped around me. I could always feel safe with Bill, that's one of things i love. We had a little bit of way to walk to the limousine. We came to a street where there were lots of trees. The stars were shining like never before and the moon was so big in the honour of us.

Something happened. The stars who were shining suddenly went grey, the moon fell down and our laughs went quiet. Bill seemed annoyed. I couldn't understand why.
- Come, he said and took my hand.
He started to run a little bit. I turned my head around just to see what we all were running away from. After us i saw paparazzis. Not 1 or 2 or 3. It was hundreds of them. They started to run too. I got panic. They came closer up to us, pushed up microphones in our heads i tried to make us answer questions:
- Bill, i've heard that you've been hitting your girlfriend a lot lately, any comments?
Panic started to reach me.
- Tom, what about this girl? Another laid? You can't be serious in a relationship, right?
I felt like i was going to trow up.
- Gustav, your girlfriend looks like your daughter, she's so small. Shouldn't you be having someone taller?

I were about to trow up.
- Georg, what's going on? Why didn't you show your girlfriend to the world yet?
Cameras was being pushed up Emelie's head. She tried to push them away.
Now i wasn't just feeling like i was going to throw up.
I was throwing up. In the bushes.
The last thing i remeber was Bill's worried face over me screaming:
- What's going on baby? Answer me.
Everything went black.

Part 2 - The Fame

Me

I was walking in the store with my bodyguard. I hated that i couldn't go out without a bodyguard anymore, each time Bill and i talked about it he looked so guilty. He didn't want the bodyguard for me since i was limited, but at the same time he wouldn't let anything happen to me. I was out just to buy some sour candies for me and Bill for tonight and accidently passed the corner filled with gossip magazines. The headline on one of the covers really shocked me; BILL KAULITZ HITTED HIS GIRLFRIEND??!! I walked up closer to the magazine and took it in my hands, opened it up and started to read "It started as a twitter rumor and now it's reality". The article totally suprised me. Bill would never hit me. Who made up this terrible things? I bought the magazine and ran home, where i was safe from this horrible world.

Bill

I was watching TV and everything was quiet and peaceful. Suddenly she smashed up the door and ran into the hall with messy hair.
- Look! she screamed and held up a magazine. She was clearly upset.
I took it in my hands and skimmed through the text. The more i red, the more hurt i was.
- It's okay, i can take it. I'm used to it.
But i was a terrible liar. She could see that i was extremly hurt by the rumor. I would never do anything close to hitting her.
- I'm going to bed. I can't be up right now. I'm up early tomorrow, i said.
She could see tears in my eyes for sure.

Me

He walked to our bedroom and looked upset . I was so pissed at the people who made up this stupid rumor and made the whole world believe in it. Since i knew that Bill wanted to be alone, i tried to think about something else to do. I turned on my laptop before making myself a big cup of tea. I quickly signed in to twitter just to have something to do. Every Tokio Hotel fan seemed to talk about the rumor, wether it was true or not. Then i saw a tweet that truly made me think. It was from a male fan who wrote; "Dear fans, don't believe in the rumors. They are all so fake. It was a Bill Kaulitz obsessed girl that made up the recent rumor a month ago, it didn't get any attention though.. until now". He also tweeted this girls username, i clicked it and saw her profile. She didn't tweet for a month. Her first tweet of all was that Bill hitted me and i totally deserved it. I felt so anrgy, signed out, turned off my laptop and went to our bedroom were all the lights were shutted off.

Bill

I loved the darkness, but tonight it was impossible for me to sleep. I could hear her small little feet walking into the room. I decided to pretend that i was sleeping. She shaked me softly to see if i was asleep yet. I opened my eyes and looked at her:
- What is it?
- Baby, i know who came up with the rumor.
She caught my attention with that sentence.
- It was a fan.
I couldn not believe my ears. I was so shocked.
- Why would a fan do that? I could understand if it was a magazine, but...a fan? That fan obviously don't want the best for me and the guys.
I was unable to say anything else. She opened up her beautiful arms and i fell into them. She held them around me and gave me a long and a warm hug. I felt so secure and in that moment i could really feel that she was the one for me. I loved her, she said it before me though.
- I love you, Bill.
No one could smile more beautiful than her.
- I love you and i always will, i said and gave her cheek a little kiss.

Me

He totally had enough of this shit. Even though it was in the middle of the night he logged on all their official sites: facebook, twitter and myspace. This was the first time that he was going to write something in person. his message sound like this:
"As you all know it's a lot of rumors going on. Please, don't believe in them. You will only make it worse for yourself, us in the band and the rest of the fandom. You wouldn't want that to happen, right? Thanks for your love and support. - Bill"
He clicked the buttons 'post' and 'sign out' and took my hand and we went to the bedroom. Tomorrow was a big day, Bill was going to do a fashion job. Tonight was a wonderful night, we fell asleep in each others arms. I had really missed those moments. Everything was wonderful for now, but tomorrow was about to get worse than today. This fame was going to break us down, piece by piece.